Sunday 10 February 2013

The toughest thing imaginable

Trying to put a label on what this experience is, is really futile in the end. Ultimately there is no way of effectively communicating that which is so bizzarre. But not just bizzarre, it's so much more than that, so much more significant. It's not your every day experience of bizzarre. It's the ultimate in surreal feelings. A bullet through the middle of your consciousness.

I wake up every day and think 'what the fuck is going on' because truthfully I don't know.
It sometimes feels like what I am experiencing is worse than insanity, and that perhaps maybe I have gone insane. The only thing that keeps me grounded is the remaining pieces of my self which have been left behind after the slaughter of my personality.

PARALYZING SOCIAL ANXIETY& HYPER-TENSION is now my life.